My rambling thoughts ….

You know in movies sometimes you see aspiring writers, or authors sitting on buses or in cafes writing , penning or typing words, waiting for them to form into something magical, something wonderful , something everyone would want to read. Well, I imagine that’s what they are thinking, who am I to assume that’s what they want. For me I don’t know if it’s like that. Sure I adore writing, but I don’t set out in the beginning for it to be something I want everyone to read. I am not expecting to get a writing deal from my blogs , somehow I doubt that someone from a publishing company looks forward to the latest installment of what I have to say about my life. I write because I love to write, it’s not like I write about anything too out of this world, everything that I type is pretty basic, but that doesn't stop me doing something I love.

Right now I am sitting on a bus home from college, as much as I love college , the people, the new adventures the new lease on life, I still get so excited about coming home every weekend . Coming home to see my family, my old friends,  the people who mean so much to me. So as much as I hate bus journeys I know that it will end soon and I will be home.

There is something about the familiar that makes me so happy. I am about 20 minutes away from home now, the moon is promptly beginning to peek out behind some clouds , even though it is still relatively bright outside. That is something that always confused me when I was younger. I could never really grasp why the moon could be out before it was dark, or at times could be seen when I got up in the morning. I can’t say I exactly understand why that happens now, but I have come to accept it. I guess we all do that about a lot of things in life. We don’t really know why some things happen  , but we just accept it and move on . Sometimes I wish I was more inquisitive about some things  , like when I was little- asking why, when, who , what ??? Always wondering , always wanted to know more. It’s not that I have given up , but I have relented and taken things for what I think they are, and not question it as much anymore.

So as I sit on this bus, swiftly approaching my town, my home, I look at the red sky setting over the trees and hills ahead of me, I look at the wind mills in the distance and the trees beside the road. I delight in the known, I exult that the lord has blessed me with a home to call my own.  I don’t question it, I take it for what it is ,and I’m glad.

Please excuse the ramblings of a wandering college girl .

                                                                                     Aoife Marie Elizabeth ♪      

Just one out of 18,000 !!

Hello.... :) 

Since I haven't written here in a little while I decided to take this time, while I have it to write something, while I have a few thoughts in my head.... because lets face it , I am now a college student so who knows how long any thoughts will stay in my head. 

So I am now in my 2nd week of college , and I still have to stop in my tracks walking around the college and think to myself...." I'm actually in college , how did this happen?? ". I just cant believe it sometimes. If you had said to me this time last year that I was going to be studying arts in Galway in a year I probably wouldn't have believed you . Probably because this time last year, I was a very panicked 17year old, freaking out about a new school, so many people, an unwelcome change (on my part) and a year with work that was piling on top of me , so much so that I couldn't see where things were headed , I was going day by day and generally trying to stay up with the rapid pace of a final year and big change. 

But ...here I am, a year later....in Galway!! Sitting on my bed in the room I will be living in for the next year , wondering when did this all happen, and how did it happen so fast ? At times sure , leaving cert year felt like it was dragging , and so many times I wished I was not in that school anymore... at times I would have given anything to be gone to college or anywhere to be away from that place . But now looking back I can not believe how fast that year went , how everything that I was freaking out about came and went and I survived it all and came out the other side better because of all that mayhem . 

So right now, I love college, I love pretty much everything about it . The people are so kind and so nice, everyone smiles here , and I love that because I smile at everyone so its really nice to have that reciprocated every now and again , I love the societies , the clubs, the lectures ( most of them ) the individuality ....pretty much college life in general . It is awesome , and I can not imagine myself in any other university then Galway   right now.... I am so glad this is how it all worked out !!

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But today I realized something , today it kinda hit me how my life has changed before my eyes and its just kinda creeping up on me now. I got a phone call today from my friend and my music teacher , they needed help setting up the piano because they didn't know how to do it .  Instinctively I was panicking trying to sort it out over the phone , talking about wires and plugs and whatchamacallits and thingamajigs , but then when it was all sorted and panic at both ends of the phones had subsided I thought about it . I now live 2 hours away from home, 2 hours away from my old school and my teachers and some of my friends . Obviously I knew this but it kinda came into context today.  My music teacher decided to ring me , because she needed my help.... that made me feel so amazing and so special. This person who I look up to needed me to help her do something even though I wasn't there. To feel needed like that , and to feel special and wanted like that was amazing for me. For the first proper time since I have gotten here I felt home sick. I missed seeing my teachers, I missed my family, I missed my friends, I missed going into a school where everyone knew who you were , be it by association, by recognition or even by " that girl who runs around the place doing things " . I have gone from a small school where everyone knew me , and knew what I was like and was willing to help....to being 1 out of 18,000 . I am now a grain of sand on a very big beach. The anonymity of it all frightens me! Sure , now I have the freedom to be whoever I choose to be, but I think I chose to be who I am a long time ago, so I don't really plan on changing that anytime soon . Really it just occurred to me today that something that I did, even if it seemed to be small , helped someone along the way...so much so that they ring to find out what it is that I did do.  
So I rang my music teacher again this evening to make sure everything was alright and all ready for tomorrow , and it was awesome talking to her, it was strange hearing her talk about something that I used to be such a big part of , and that I am heartbroken to miss, but most of all ...it was touching and special to hear her say that she missed me !!! As much as I love college and everything that comes with it , right now I am home sick . 
I miss everything about home right now - especially being just Aoife . 

Aoife Marie Elizabeth ♪

The new chapter - College

This week marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life - not to sound cliche or anything but it really is.
I have, at this very moment in my life put 13 years of education being me . That is a lot ! But yet , here I am about to venture into another 4 years of education , but this time it's different. This time it is bigger then it has ever been before.

Firstly, my transition from primary to secondary school was quiet literally a step across a road, that's pretty much what I had to do, change uniforms, get new teacher walk across the road! It was, at the time a massive deal to me and my classmates of course, but compared to this transition it was a piece of cake.

Now, I have moved. I am now in Galway, a different county, a different province then I am used to . I am specializing in subjects that I actually have an interest in, rather then ones that I had to do for the sake of an exam. I am living on my own, without my mommy and daddy taking care of me, I have to take care of me!! It is without a doubt a scary experience , but totally exciting too ! Despite the fact that the volume of people and the size of this college is so overwhelming , I love it - I completely love it .

I feel like I am on one big adventure ..... life is an adventure ! This happens to be one of my first really big ones ! A wise person once said " The biggest adventure you can take is to live the life of your dreams " . My dream ever since I was small was to go to college , now I'm here and I couldn't be happier . Of course packing some of my stuff from the room I have lived in for the last 18 years of my life was strange, setting up a new room somewhere complete different without my parents was strange ( and upsetting ) being a proper adult is strange- but it is all a wonderful strange . I can safely say that this is going to be the most exciting , most interesting chapter of my life so far and I can't wait to see what God has in store for me .

The chapter so far : 

So far, I have fallen in love with the City I will be calling home for the next 4 years. The buzz around Shop Street as you walk down it is amazing.  Men playing upright pianos in the middle of the street, people painting picture and musicians standing on railings  . The fact that I am in a city and do not have 2 fields either side of me with bellowing cows ( yet there remains to be " cows that say beep " ) , everything being so fantastically friendly - it is fabulous, and I am in love .

I have spent more time with my best friend and her fabulous sisters , which is epic. They have taken me under their wing so to speak and I couldn't be more blessed with such fantastic friends in my life.

I am experiencing God in a whole new way....and I kinda love it ! My faith has been woken up somewhat recently . In a way I have been praying for. I feel alive , enriched and inspired! It is something I am going to have to really think and pray hard about now. But I am thankful that I am experiencing my faith in a whole new way.


To put in simply - I love it here , I love college !

Aoife Marie Elizabeth ♪

As summer draws to a close

This summer has been one to remember ...for many reasons - But I am not going to recap on all that now!

Yesterday was in most ways the end of my summer holidays. Although I have a few days left before I start at college ( ahhh ) those days will be filled with unknown tasks and getting to know my new surroundings ... so yesterday was the last day of fun before all this scarily exciting stuff begins. 

I spent this last day with very special people. To start off the day I went back to my secondary school to see my dear teachers....post Leaving Cert. I hadn't seen many of them since the whole exams/ results so it was a fantastic reunion . Speaking to them no longer as their student, but now as a friend made me feel so grown up , and yet so very humble , that these people whom I have respected so highly the past 5 years of my life now speak to me like an adult . It was wonderful getting to see them all again .

Following this my evening was to grow even more eventful ! I spent the rest of my day with my best friend, her darling little sister and her parents :) . My second family minus 2 . I couldn't think of a better way to end my summer then fixing i-pods, climbing trees, searching tree houses, swinging on swings , playing with stones, taking many many pictures and having the most fun I have had for a while in the company of a wonder friend. 

So before I venture off into a few adventures of my own ... as one chapter end , another is beginning and I can't wait to see what this adventure has to bring ! But no matter what, the adventures I have with my friends will always have a special place in my heart !! 

 

                                     

I love my best friend ♥

“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one.’” 

                                            ---- C.S. Lewis 

Aoife Marie Elizabeth ♪