I carry your heart...

At the beginning of the year I aspired to write much more frequently on this blog then I had last year....so far that has not been going to plan, but we shall not fear , it is but the end of January and there is a total of 11 more months to go to fill in the spaces of this online journal...and more important to me fill in the spaces of my personal journal . 

This year has already had it's moments of unforgettable proportion , some I wish were forgettable , or even did not happen at all , and some I wish I could relive again ( now that is saying something 28 days into a new year right ? ) . Sometimes one has to learn to say " C'est la vie" when it comes to the things you can not change in this world...as much and you hope and pray and wish you could do something about it , sometimes you can not and it is in those moments that you grow stronger in yourself . I can firmly say that in those moments it doesn't feel like you are growing stronger.... but on the inside you are . Your heart is growing , you are growing .You have to accept somethings and it can be hard but c'est la vie indeed . 

" God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference." 

Sometimes we have to accept what we cannot change , and that is okay too. 

    A poem that I discovered by E.E.Cummings a long time ago seemed to prop up a few weeks back , out of the blue someone said a line and I immediately remembered the poem I was once so fond of . It again came up in conversation with a friend of mine who loved the poem more then I did . Now I find myself reading it almost everyday , there is something about it that is calming and oh so beautiful 

I carry your heart with me(I carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

I go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

                                                      I fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)I want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart(I carry it in my heart) ~ E.E.Cummings . 

Please forgive the nonsensical ramblings of a wandering mind , but sometimes it is nice to just sit and write . 

Aoife Marie Elizabeth ♪ 

Gods Will

A year ago I began writing a blog, not really knowing where I was going to go with it. I started it because someone who has become like family wrote one and it was fantastically beautiful and well pretty inspiring ... so I began on that January night to blog... just randomly writing whatever came to mind, my rambling thoughts about people, places , things, God and life . 
 I look back on that now a year on and wonder why I didn't start this years ago. I feel I have grown through this process . English always being one of my favorite subjects I have always loved to write ,but never really though anyone cared .... let along would bother reading it . But this blog has given me the freedom to write what I want when I want but has also kept me to a bit of a schedule with my writing. I try to write as often as I can  now and thinking about something , automatically remark "hum...I might blog about that " (sounds very cosmopolitan , trust me it's nothing like that at all !! ) . I am a free writer now, and although my writing is kinda public for anyone to see , I don't find myself craving the attention , I just love to write and like the fact that I have somewhere to do so ... I even feel I am writing more and not posting it here at all .... I guess I have to have some secrets right ;) . 

    
  So while looking through one of  my journals with 2 friends this evening , one of them came across a poem I wrote a few months ago....as usual I forgot to date it but I'm gonna say it might have been September / October ?  I had totally forgotten about this poems existence , however I do remember writing it - It was a beautiful night and I could not sleep so ... I looked out my window and I began to write. 

To mark the new year and hopefully a year full of adventure, opportunity and well me trying to do Gods will . I am going to share this lost poem with you ... I rarely put my poetry on here ( mainly because it's not great) but also because I like to keep some bits to myself but hey .... as my niece would say ..." Sharing is caring " . 

Hope you all enjoy ! Happy New Year to you all and I hope this year is awesome and blessed for you ♥.

GODS WILL

I look towards the sky tonight 

not knowing what I'll see.

Some stars at an unearthly height? 

or magnificence staring back at me ? 

High in the sky I see it 

Dangling among this nights clouds

An illuminating globe fantastically lit 

How can something so silent be so loud ? 

For not a single word I'm saying 

but words flow freely from my head 

I sit upon where I should be laying ,

and think fantastic thoughts instead.

For all is dark and clouds are moving 

The moon has become still,

For morning calls and then the dawning 

The time has come to do Gods Will. 

Aoife Marie Elizabeth ♪